In loving memory of Brennan P. Tomallo
(1984 - 2010)
And Now You’re Dead
Just a moment, few seconds
It’s all what it takes
Your life is gone
Your life is taken away
We are still here
And you on your way
But time will come
We’ll meet again
For now, take care
May angels ease your way
Goodbye, farewell my friend
Until we meet again…
Why, oh why?
Why me
I bag you to answer me
Why are you doing this?
Save me, oh dear God
Save me from this misery
I wasted my life
On unimportant things
I know I should be punished
But why, oh why this?
Will I ever repay my dues to you?
Will I ever come clean?
Or you'll keep punishing me
Until I learn!!?
Dear God, it’s too late for me now
Please forgive me and let me be
Stop your punishment
Let me live...
Insomnia
Pain
My body hurts
I feel
My bones
I am so tired
But can't sleep
My head heavy
My arms weak
And my eyes burn
Tears on my cheek
Dry in the heat
It's warm in my bed
But somehow I feel cold
Am I just sick?
Or because I feel old
So many things on my mind
Worries
I can't move from my bed
Not even 30 years old
And feels like I’m almost dead.
My teeth hurt
I can feel hole
And my chest?
I sure can feel my longs!
To many cigarettes I smoked today
Some say stop - it will kill you one day!
Ah, we all have to die, I say
I know for my end
I can blame only myself
And so, so many things on my mind
Questions and answers
But time
Time is not passing by
Not so fast anymore...
Counting hours until next day
And then
All over again...
Until she comes
Knocking on the door
I will be helplessly
Writing more...
It Hurts
My body is so weak
I can't move at all
My mind so tired
I can beryl speak
My eyes red
From all this tears
I can feel pain
I feel the end
So many sleepless nights
So many weird things crossed my mind
Would it be better to come to an end?
Should I live in pain?
Or kill myself
So weak to even try
Time passing quickly by
It hurts more and more
My body
My mind
My soul
And the morning comes
Am still numb in my bed
Lonely
Sad
Disappointed in myself
I did not even try to stop this
Not even tried to killed myself
It hurts
Oh, God it hurts
Day by day
Life in pain
Waiting for you
To take me
To make it come to an end!
