Against Them All

 

 

Gossip

I´m getting sick and tired

Of all this people

Of being followed

They all know what´s the best for me

I´m the one who´s living

Now and here

I decided and choosed

  Me

 

 

 

 

 

All Alone In The Dark

 

 

 

Tired from all that pain

Sitting here

Drinking wine

Searching for excuse

To kill myself

Putting some clothes

Leaving

Vanishing

No more wine

No more pain

Just me

Sadness

And rain

Always Somebody Else’s Fault

 

 

I hate this

Every time when I want to do something

I’ll do it

No doubt

But to blame somebody else

It’s something I could do without

 

How easy is to make you do

Something you don’t want to do?

Or you want but it’s easier

To blame everybody else but you!

 

You always have a reason

And excuse

To go

To place you love

But always make sure

Someone’s goes with you

 

O looked over it once

Got upset second time

Now I have nothing to say

Should I blame you

Or like you do

Blame somebody else?

 

 

Am I So Stupid

 

For the same thing

I get bitched about

However, when you do it

I should say nothing

No doubt

 

I spent some times

On my own

Closed between four walls

At home

 

But every chance

You have

You are going to use it

Not even thinking about

That I may not like it

Am I so stupid?

No doubt

 

 

And Now You Going Away

 

 

 You packed you bags today

Ready to leave

Ready to go away

I surprised myself

Because I don’t have

Anything to say

 

I am not sure

Are you running away

From me

Our relationship

Or running from yourself

 

Even if I knew

I will still have nothing 

To say

I stopped you few times

But this time I’ll

Not beg you to stay

 

I don’t know

What all this mean

I’ll do it step by step

First I have to get use to

Idea of emptiness inside

 

 

 

 

Anything Is Possible

 

The sun can shine

In the same time

Rain can fall

Everything is possible

In love and war

 

Build the bridge

Crash the wall

To hate

And in the same time to love

When you are in love

When you are in war

 

When you brake

And fall

You have to stand up tall

Be strong

And show them all

 

It’s your life

You can hate

And you can love

Make a war

Be in love

Anything is possible

Anything at all

 

Just be careful what you wish for…

 

 

 

 

Are You Sure It's Love

 

If he can make you cry

Pissed you off

Make you smile

Make you forget the things

Not care what are you going to do

Make you extremely jealous

Insecure

But he's all what you think off

Then I'm telling you

It has to be love

 

 

Closure

 

  Comfortable as I am

I need your reinsurance

Comfortable as you are

You count days

But if I wanna silence

I would whisper

And if I want a loneliness

I chose to go

And if I like rejection

I’ll audition

And if I didn’t love you

You would know

 

Why you just don’t hold me

And why are you so hard

And do you like to see me broken

And why I do still care

 

You say you see the light now

On the end of this narrow hole

Now I wish it didn’t matter

I wish I didn’t give you all

 

Pure little misunderstood baby

No one like the sad face

But I can’t remember the life without you

I think I did have good days…

         

                                     

                                       Fairy Tale

 

 

In the land far away

Impossible

Dream in your head

Perfect World

Fairy tale

 

All this years in sleep

All that time

Beautiful World

Only dream

 

After all that time

You came and woke me up

Let me know to be aware

                            To not miss my fairy tale

 

Forgive Me

 

Forgive me

For all things

I said

For all stupid things

I did, because

One day

When everything goes wrong

And we may not

Be together anymore

And you may not want

To speak to me anymore

I want you one thing

To know

No matter what I said then

No matter what I'll still do

My love for you

Nothing can chase away

(I hope it will never happened)

Because I want to love you

I want you to stay

I want you more then ever

I want us to stay together

Forever

 

Friday The 13th

How many tears

Can you cry in one day

How much can you fear, be afraid

Ectually really scared

How much stress

Can you take

And cigarettes to smoke

Thinking will your heart soon

Be broke

How he will react

What to expect

What to say

And what to do

Will he tell you to fuck off

Or I love you too

 Fucking Hell I Do Love You

 

On this not special day

Reading you card

Again and again

One thing I want to say:

 

And even if I don’t know you

So well,

And even if I don’t know you

So long,

Feeling I have grows.

Is so strong.

It makes me to put on hold

Everything and everybody,

Even me.

Love baby,

Love…

Game

 

It’s not fair to play

My stupid game

It’s not that I’m only

Hurting myself

I’m hurting you as well.

Last night I was thinking

To myself,

Why go thru all this

Later

Just do it now

Be finished with it the end will be the same.

I thought you will leave me and never come back again.

This time I made a plan.

If I make you upset

If I start the game

I’ll make you leave

And not blame myself.

It’s not that I don’t love you

But I am not sure what the future will be

I thought if I start now

It will be easier for me.

So insecure

I said some things that

I don’t really mean

I made you leave.

I am the only player

And I did choose

Before game finished

To lose.

How much I lost

I don’t know

It will hit me when I wake up

Tomorrow.

I shouldn’t play

That stupid game

I should just wait and see

When the time comes

In the future

On display of live to be

 

GAME OVER

 

Hard To Resist

 

 

 

All this faces

Everybody wants something

Stupid questions

Just to talk to you

Special offers

To make you drunk

Sweet talk

And gentle touch

Their hands

On your butt

Kisses on your neck

Smell of perfume and

Sweat

You like butterfly

From one flower to an other

Just wave and smile

Hard to resist

But I found my

Honey already

 

 

Hunted

 

Like a ghost

From TV

You are all over

Your small is

Hunting me

 

Anyplace, anytime

I can smell your presence

You are around

 

God knows how much I like it

That’s the way it suppose to be

This is your home still

It makes everything

So difficult

When you are not here

And when I’m not sure

If you’ll ever be

Your smell will hunt me

Not let me to forget

You

 

I Am In Love

 

 

 

Live day by day

Just to hear

Your voice

On the other side

To smile again

 

After long day

Your voice

Chase everything away

Hearing you

Saying my name

Wakes life in me

 

Again

 
i am losing it

 

  step by step

bit by bit

i feel its all gone

i am losing it

 

all my friends

and psychologist

internist and sexologist

seems can not find a thing

 

is it world

or is it me?

if nobody found anythung

what is then wrong with me?

 

there is nothing wrong with me

its all illusion, bad dream

wrong chances and envy

to all this perfect people, situations and places to be!

 

bad people

luck of money

unsetisfy lowers

turn you to your own enemy

 

I Got Love To Kill

 

 

All this talk about love

Makes me weak

Makes me sick

Love, love, love

What a trill

I got love

Enough to kill

 

Move on

Tell me what you want

Look at me

What’s going to be

I can’t let you go

Tell me

Love

Are you looking for me

I got love

Love to kill

 

 

Killing The Time

 

 

Killing the time

Drinking

Waiting for days

To pass by

For something to happen

For somebody to talk to

Calls from strangers

Going somewhere

Far away…

Rainy Day



Early evening

Stupid me

Start to cry

Saw something on TV

 

The way

How two friends said goodbye

Reminded me of you

And I start to cry

 

Together sky and me

Went to sleep

On the special way

We ended this rainy day

 

Route 666

 

 

From the desert

To oasis

Lived for the moment to

To get away

 

First chance I had

I took it

Pack my bags

And run away

 

Road is long

Desert hot

Sun burned me but

I had to go on

 

All alone

On the road

For the moment

I lost hope

 

I made it

I got there

Found my oasis

It’s a dead end

 

For something

Wanted so bad

I got punished

But I found my oasis

 

Desert is so big

I can’t stand all this heat

My mind got twisted

I couldn’t see

 

There is no oasis

Just a heat

Long road

And me

 

Fatamorgana

Something that doesn’t exist

Never was

And never will be

 

There is no oasis

There is no end

Road is huge circle

Circle around hell

Secretly

 

 

Whole my life

I’m trying something to hide

Living by my own rule

Playing like a fool

Cheating on everybody

Not anybody but me

 

I have never been

True to myself or anybody

Just lying and pretending

Living this foolish life

This illusion

Secretly

 

So Fad Up With You



I love you so much

I did even more then I could do

To provide you new life

To give you what you want

But now I’m fad up with you

 

I don’t want to do this

Anymore

If that means the end

Well let it be

Lets go our separate ways

Search for something more

 

You love me

I know

I love you

That’s for sure

But why to kill that now

When we still have time

To save what’s left

Be good friends

Love each other on the other way

And say one day

Hey, be good

And always take care

Of yourself

That Friday

 

 

Friday

Boring and grey

Not much to do

Not much to say

Day like any other day

 

Sitting at work all alone

Waiting to meet some friends

Drink something

Smoke

And after to go home

 

Suddenly

Not boring and grey

So much to do and so much to say

Not just any other day

Very "special" one, Friday

 

Not alone

Not feeling like going home

Just to dance and maybe to see

What about

You and me?

 

Hm, Friday

Saturday

Sunday

Monday came so suddenly…

 

Twenty And Something

 

In between all this people

You and me

Laughing and bitching about everybody

Trying to have some fun

Before you "fall a sleep".

In orange

Danced on the street

"Wild sex on the stage"

"Threesome"

Got "married" and went

Early to sleep.

"Big, blue, wet ocean"

On the Labor Day

Best "happy hour" I ever had

And that song in language unknown

And the same game 3 rd time we played

Morning came and you said:

"What's your age again?"

 

Twenty and something…

 

                           

                            Where Did My Heart Go

 

  I hate silence

And not to speak

I hate everything

I hate me

 

I can’t cry anymore

And I can’t eat

I throw up already

And I took a shit

 

This make me go crazy

I want to kill myself

But I can’t go

Before I am sure that you know

 

I met you

And felt in love

Gave you my heart

But how to treat you I don’t know

 

That I still love you

You should know

No matter where you will be

No matter where you will go

 

I know I wrote

Stuff like this before

It was not the same

It was on the other nivoue

 

You have my heart

I have no reason to live

What can I offer

What else s to give

 

I loved before

But never like this

Imagine, I felt in love

Just after a kiss

 

Am I so easy

Or you are the one

I’ll never know

What is done is done

 

And if you run away

With my heart

You will be the one I love

For the rest of my life

 

Thing I say, I guess

It’s true

You only love once

And I am glad is you

 

Your Pillow And Me

 

Our bed is empty

You are not here

And your pillow

Is looking at me

Sad that you can’t hear

How he’s telling me

How happy he could be

If you put your head on him

If you were here

 

Our bed is empty

You are not here

I’m looking at your pillow

Wandering

If you could hear my cry

And know how I feel inside of me

Would you come back

Put your head on your pillow

Next to me