From Romania With Love

I saw you some time ago

Your long hair caught my eye

Your narrow smile

Caught my heart

And even if you didn’t had time

To say much

What you said was enough

I kept you in my mind

All this time

And then

Last week I saw you again

We danced in the bar

We walked in park

Plaid games like children do

You kissed me

I kissed you

I had fun

I hope you did too

 

Now, I can’t stop thinking about you

I can’t wait to see you

And I hope it will be soon…

One In A Million

Child that grew up

Alone

Had difficult life

Tries to make something

Something good

Of his life

Then I came along

And maybe I messed his plans up

Not sure if it’s

Right of wrong

But he has answer to it all

“One In A Million”

He believes to be

Convincing me

How lucky I am

To “be” with him

His easy solution

For my problem here

“Just believe in me”

He says with a smile

“Third time is a lucky one!”

Secret To Tell

You’re so cute

Talking about relationships

And what you think important is

For one to work

Honestly

Fun

And good talk

But there I go wrong

Leading you on

Making you think

I might be honest

With you

But

There are some things

I did

I still do and

I will for the rest of my life

A bit scary

My secret

My lie

Fat

Do you like me?

And why?

Because I’m funny?

Because we had fun?

 I know I let myself go

Got fat and old

Nothing you would go for

So again

I asked myself

Why do you like me?

And how?

Free ticket

For better tomorrow?

Or I need to change

To look like model

On underwear box

To please you

For you to not ignore

“Fat teddy bear”

That I am

To kiss me when no one is there

Fat, fat, fat

Old, old, old

Nowhere to go

Nothing to do

Just hope you like me

The way I like you

No Chance To Survive

You and I

Sounds so nice

But so not real

You there

And I am here

Your young mind

Works the way I don’t understand

You said

“I’ll come there then”

And that’s it for you!

So easy to say

So easy to do

But you don’t know me

And I don’t know you

What when you do?

What will you say?

What would you do?

Go back to live your life

Leaving me behind

Broken and sad

Making me regret

The day I kissed you

And took you with me

Hoping to be finally free

From my old life

My past

Food and drinks

Starting something new

With you

But now

It makes me think

Leave it be

Let it go

There is no way

There is no chance

Sex

I so wish

But then I don’t

I’m so confuse

What happened with me

With us

With you

More confusing

Then this

The thing

That didn’t happened

And why?

Two guys in the bar

Two guys going home

But slept alone!

I know why I didn’t try

But what’s your deal?

How all this is real?

Or I am dreaming again

Like I did before

Making my own story

To sound real to me

But like everything else

Seems only

Fairytale to be

Just You

I just spoke to you on the phone

You voice so calm

“How are you hon’?”

I dreamed a bit away

Imagine you

On the other side

Looking at the computer

With your dark eyes

Maybe not caring how I feel

Not knowing how this is too real for me

Not knowing what I would do

Change myself

My life

Just for you!

Why is this happening to me

Am I falling for you

This is not real

But deep down I want it to be

Even if I’ll hurt myself

Let my heart to bleed

Again

Silly me

Listening to the wind outside

Hoping he will bring my thoughts to you

Letting you know

That I might

Fall in love

Soon…

Storm

It’s storm outside

Storm in my mind

Storm in my heart

Rain of my tears

Deep inside

Sweat

Because I’m sitting here

In this fucking hot room

Listing to the wind

Blowing my senses away

Leaving me blank

With just one thing on my mind

How should I handle this?

How to stop what I feel?

Do I want it or not?

Shell I got with the flow

And run when it gets too hot?

?

It’s a storm outside

I’m sitting here

It’s so fucking hot

I hate you for what you did to me

I hate you for nothing

And for all

I hate you

I like you

So fucking hot

Fuck it all…

No sun after rain

Morning after storm

Air is so clean

Trees so green

In the tram on my way

Long day

And rain

No sun

No heat

In my mind

You

And me

Dreaming away

Coming out of blue

Is it true?

Is it you? 

Prince

I wonder

Do you know what

Love is all about

Party?

Only fun?

Are you the one?

Prince

Dream we all desire

Until we expire

Getting old

On my own

Waiting for someone

On the white horse

Having fun

Alone

Hoping

To have you

My Prince

White horse

Dream…

And you my Prince,

Longing for me

As I do for you

Becoming the one

I’m waiting for so long

Being your dream

The one you waited

For so long.

Our dream,

My dear Prince

Our future

For once

And for all.

And then

White horse

Passed by

Living me behind

Dreaming

My fairytale

Wondering

Where you are

Trying to wake myself up

Trying to forget

My dream

My horse

Oh, you my Prince.

Don’t Call Me

You don’t need to call me

You said to me

And I will respect your

Wish

Chill please

You said to me

I’ll do it

Even if it’s hard to resist

What do you want from me

That’s what I would like to know

Is it really me

Or my home

You got me

You really did

I hope you happy

You made me weak

I’ve been there

Many times before

Used and broken

But want some more

And if you tell me

To disappear

I will, taking you

In my heart with me…

So, only God knows

And time will tell

What’s going to be

But know only one thing:

You can break me

You can make me cry

But my love

Will never die!

I Am Losing It

I am losing my mind

You twisted freak

Made me sad

Made me weak

I can’t sleep

And I can’t think

Want to change

Want to be fit

Just to please you

And that makes me sick!

Why?

What did you do to me

Am I really so stupid

Blind

Weak

To fall in love

With someone like you

To feel like I feel

Confused and blue

Wanted to breathe

Only for you

Tell Me

Tell me what do you want from me

My love

Just friendship

Or something in between

I’m too old to play

This silly game

Running around

Chasing no one

Me and you

Not even started

But already

Through

I need to heal

What happened to me

I need to kill

This to be…

Asexual

Wake me up

Inside

Come and take

This awfulness away

I’m tired

Not feeling

Anything

Down there

I fell in love

With a stranger

But important

Thing

I don’t feel

It’s all dead

For a long time now

Wake me

Help me

To live again

Tell Me How

How is this going to work?

I am here

You there

I love you

You don’t care

How is this going to work?

I want to tell you

All about how I feel

But you’re not listening

You don’t hear

How is this going to work?

I like you

Not just like a toy

You are so not there

I’m just another boy

How is this going to work?

When I’m scared

And I don’t dare

To be me

To be who I am

Tell Me Why

Why do I like you so much

Why do I miss your smile

Your kiss

Your touch

What is this

What´s wrong with this World

Why can´t you leave me

I just want to be alone

Why

Why do I suffer every day

See things

That are not there

I so want to

But I don´t dare

You don´t love me

 I don´t care

Tell me why

What it has to be this way

Tell me how

Tell me when

Tell me where

I´ll wait for you

I´ll love you

I´ll be there

Nobody’s Bitch

I’m not going to run around

To be there

Only when you need someone

In a background

When you get bored

Of your perfect

Busy life

When no one is watching

When no one is

Around

You never call

You just don’t care

And me here

Loving you

Like a fool

Hoping and praying

For you to stay

I’m nobody’s bitch

I said so many times

No matter how great

How cute

How perfect

You are

I’m nobody’s bitch

I mean

I don’t want to be

But you got me

Down

On my knees

Making me do

Things I don’t want to do

Making me

Love you

You

You

The way you make me feel

Oh my God

This is so true

I feel much better

After I talk to you

Just your voice

Even if so far

Touches my soul

My heart

You’re so cute

And your eyes so dark

And when you smile

I feel the spark

Is it just me

Or is something in the air

I would ask you

But I don’t dare

I can’t tell you how I feel

I’m here

It’s me

It’s real

Kraljica Tuge

(Queen of Sorrow)

There is no one here

Alone in the dark

Just memory

Of you

Tears

My tears

Friends I only have

No tomorrow

Tears

And sorrow

When I leave

Only my tears

I’ll leave behind

No one here

Tears

Sorrow

And me

Addicted To Love

You can’t eat

You can’t sleep

Your knees are shaking

You’re so weak

You can’t think

And you forget

Things and

Places

Familiar faces

You breathe

But don’t exist

It’s killing you

But you can’t stop

You just won’t

You’re leaving

To fall in love

Torn

Brick wall felt apart

My heart exposed

Not protected

I can feel love

Rollercoaster of my life

Husband

Boyfriend

Lover

And someone I really like

Torn

My hear like a brick wall

Felt apart

Felt in love

Lonely

Not alone

Crying for days that are gone

Torn

Between all this loved ones

So lonely

But not alone

The night comes

My head heavy

My thoughts dark

I close my eyes thinking

My heart

My poor heart

Alone & Lonely

Days are passing by

No calls

No one ask

How, when and why?

Hours passing by

So slowly

Time

I feel so alone

Who should I call?

In my bed

With flu I guess

Wandering

Does anyone love me

Does anyone care

Hard to breathe

Feel so sick

Feel so alone

Where are you

Come and rescue me

Help me

To get over this blue

To get over him

And maybe you

Days passing by

In a week

I’ll be twenty-nine

Still alone

Still on my own

In comfort of my bed

My home

But no one to share

All love I have

Build up inside

Ready to make someone happy

Ready to fly…

This hours

Long and lonely

Feels like it never going to end

Me feeling blue

You being you

Us not existing

Misery

My life

And this

All this

Burns

Makes me angry

Alone

Lonely

Nor me, nor you

Just sadness

Just blue…

Please Forgive Me

I ‘m not who you think I am

I’m not what you want me to be

I’m drama, so much drama

But that’s really me

I ask you to forgive me

For all I’ve done

For all I’ll do

Was never my attention to lie to you

I do like you

I want you to know

But so many things about me

Need to stay unknown

Don’t want to hurt you

Don’t want to hurt myself

This is the moment

This is the end

Please forgive me

Don’t ask me to explain

Let’s pretend it never happened

And stay good friends

Vitaly

This is to you

Unknown stranger

My apology

Bringing you so close to danger

I was not thinking

That must be clear

When I’m drunk

I know no fear

I should know better

I’m one to blame

If something happens to you

I will never forgive myself

I hope you are ok

And I wish you well

And I hope too

Never see you again

I hope you’ll forgive me

And understand

I just need to protect you

From myself

Goodbye my dear friend…